Conscious Conception

In 2014, 2 years after my C-section with my first daughter, I consciously conceived my second daughter. I did not even know the term “Conscious Conception” at the time, but I did know energy. Here is my story of opening to the subtle energies & trusting my claircognizance.

It was a rainy fall night. Me and my maiden, best intuitive friend forever (BIFF) got back to my house after an evening of music and good drinks at the local, rural brewery. I was so excited to show her the new puja (alter) that I had just made in my meditation room. While we were admiring it, I expressed to her that I had been feeling a very subtle energy wanting to come in, through me. I expressed all of my fears and feelings of not-good-enough. As any good BIFFY does, she looked me in the eyes and said, “Of course you can do this, Charlotte, you are so strong and brave!” Right after that we started laughing and hugging and rolling on the floor.

The next day, my husband who was at a weekend immersion with our Spiritual Teacher, Sandra, came home to tell me that during a sound healing, meditation practice he saw two eyes looking down at him from a tree. He said they felt familiar. I told him that that is our next child coming in. He told me all of the reasons we couldn’t have another child - money, timing, physical concerns, etc. Then we made love. But this wasn’t when our next child was conceived.

One week later, on a Saturday, I woke up and knew that this was the day to conceive our next child. I made us an herbal aphrodisiac tea and we made love in the afternoon. I knew in that moment that Ella was conceived. We went on to experience the birth portal at home on the second full moon of July in our home with no one but a friend and our traditional midwife present. She was my HBAC (Home bith after C-section), my first unassisted, physiological birth that changed my life forever.